The Definition of Peculiar

Unusual or eccentric; odd.
Distinct from all others. See Synonyms at strange.
Belonging distinctively or primarily to one person, group, or kind; special or unique: rights peculiar to the rich; a species peculiar to this area. NOUN

Just getting started on this blogging thing. I always think that I have so much to say. I never say it so maybe I can write it.

The definition of Peculiar describes me pretty well. The way I think is always in pictures. Maybe everyone thinks that way, I don't know. If I could paint I would be a master. I can't even draw stick people and make them look easy.

I have always thought that people who wrote about themselves were probably egomaniacs or full of pride. Most likely annoying. Maybe I am all of those things but on a blog if your going to write in it regularly you would like whoever to read it to get a sense about you. I am peculiar. (Refer to definition at the top of the page.)

What stands out most about me? I can only say what feedback I get from others. Physically I am overweight but nothing to throw sticks at. I have always been in a relationship (not necessarily a good thing), and am currently married and happy. I have three kids that are grown and all are good people and wise beyond there years. I did something right even if I did many things wrong.

Mentally I feel like I am pretty sharp. I sometimes feel like I am gifted with a ability to see into the minds of others, even before they can see it themselves. Unfortunately that doesn't apply to me most of the time. I trip, stumble and fall to get the truths like everyone else.

As you will see I am terrible at the architect of putting a sentence together. I never paid attention in English class. Sorry about that.

The thing I most like about me is that I am very spiritual. Not the kind of Spiritual person that is of no earthly good. I read trashy novels, cuss to much and have a very weird fetish for Heavy Metal and Alternative music. I just happen to embrace my dark side as well as my Christian side.

I told you I was peculiar... Can the two coexist. Some people don't think so but to say the devils music (as some people call it) aren't already coexisting in the world around us would be a lie. Music is a very important part of my life. Much like the stick people I cannot draw, the creating of music eludes me as well.

So I like music and art, I am a believer in many things but for lack of a better word...a Christian.
To say I am Christian makes me uncomfortable. It is to imply that I am Christlike and I am no where near that. Nor do I want to be. I embrace a lot of things spiritually much to the disappointment and chagrin of most Christians who believe there is only one way to believe and that is theirs. I guess in all of my exploring the different paths to take on your core beliefs...the Christian story has all the Love I need. That's why I choose to believe it first and foremost as my core belief. However, there are truths in many things and many ways to believe. If you are not evolving in your thoughts I feel sorry for you. I don't think it's my way or the highway. There is no peace in that.

I throw away the majority of what a Christian is in this day and age like separatism of denominations, following a leader like the blind leading the blind. I keep all that is true TO ME as what I believe. I don't attend church because I haven't found one that sends me away encouraged. I think that is a criteria. Who doesn't need courage to face getting up in the morning in this day and age. I don't need a course in positive thinking once a week nor do I need to reminded there is a God to only forget it by Friday. I need courage which is a living, breathing emotion.

So I am going to start blogging on how I see things from a Spiritual perspective. Not that anyone would really care. I just want a place to untangle my thoughts about the lessons, journeys and tribulations I have had in my life. Most of the time it will be from a Biblical perspective. It will probably piss people off but these are my thoughts and don't read them if it does.

Nice to meet you.